1/6/11 The U Turn

So I have made up my mind to do another U turn...I have gotten off of the right track and I am making a conscious effort to get back on it again. I dont like being the fat girl....nor do I like not being able to breathe when I lay down. I dont like walking into a store and seeing really cute clothes that I cant wear. I realize that I am the only one who can do anything about this....I got on the scale this morning and I weigh 223.6 not my heaviest by far....but most definitely much larger than I want to be. So I am going to make the effort to eat better and exercise a lot more. I have admitted to myself that I have become really lazy. I have become way to comfortable and I dont like it! they say you cant love someone else fully until you love yourself and at this point in my life I dont like me at all! So I am going to turn myself back around and do it....I am going to like what and who I see in the mirror every day. It is very easy for me to slip into being lazy and staying in my pajamas all day unless I have a shoot. This morning I decided not to do that. I decided to get dressed and put make up on and feel human again. That is one of the downfalls of working from home. Everybody thinks they would love to work from home....but it is very easy to lose yourself when you are doing so. I have become very distant I feel and I dont feel like I am really accomplishing anything. Well that is about to change. Today, I am going to go run errands and go to the grocery store. I am going to start realizing things I like about me and working on making myself back into the person that I love being! Dont get me wrong. I am very thankful for the life that I have and feel very blessed and fortunate to be able to run my business from home and to absolutely love what I do. I just feel like I am not getting anywhere....and that needs to change. So here we go.........complete 180~