1/15/11...getting back on again....

I feel like I have fallen off of the wagon....these last couple of days I have been eating leftovers as to clean out the fridge...not really measuring...just eating. Then tonight I made taco salad...granted I used ground turkey...but still....that doesnt exactly make it healthy. I made yet another promise to myself, tomorrow I get up earlier and try for the gym again. I am paying for a membership that is just sitting there.....WTH that is a waste of money...Money I could honestly use. So if I am going to pay it, I might as well at least make use of it.....There is so much on my mind right now....I don't even begin to know where to start. I am angry at myself because I have once again fallen back into my old patterns and I am trying to convince myself that tomorrow will be different....but that is a battle I am fighting within myself. I know that I can do this....I KNOW I CAN! I JUST HAVE TO DO IT! One foot in front of the other and one breathe at a time. I have been telling other people that so why cant I convince myself to do the same.....So tomorrow I am going to do my best to get back on the right track. I love my life and I want to be the one to live it.....