Just another day!

Today was just another day, not nearly enough hours in the day and way too much to do. I ate things that I shouldnt have, didnt exercise and basically just said well there is always tomorrow. But tomorrow isnt going to get me on the path to healthy today. Why do I not care about me? Why am I not important enough to worry about myself? Why exactly is that? That is the question of the moment. Just another something for me to work on. Lets add that to the list of a million things wrong with me.

Beef

Dinner with a friend.... Great time, great company, great food. Wings vs. Salad...come on it was beef o bradys, it will be wings hands down. Honey BBQ wings with fries and sweet tea. Yeah.. Not the best dieting decision I have ever made...but the company and the conversation were a good choice. Conversation was easy for the most part. This friend pushes me beyond my comfort zones and makes me look at things differently that what I normally would have. He makes me second guess complete thought processes and why I  have those thoughts in the first place. He doesn't really push me, he puts these inclinations in my mind and then I have to think about them and why I am the way I am. At times I am ok with that and other times it makes me really uncomfortable. Our conversations are never dull. So if I had to eat a million wings to have the conversation then that is what I would do because I am very thankful for the friendship. Today it was ok to gain some weight to maybe lose some weight off the shoulders.

Excuses

I certainly have my share of excuses. I am tired, I dont feel good, I have a headache, thats too hard. If I wanted to get healthy I mean REALLY wanted to..you would think I would do something about it. Not have Hardees for lunch, not get such a MONSTER burger. I would get off my behind and do something about it. But I seem to always have excuses. About EVERYTHING! Its like I want to have my leg chopped off or not be able to see, or have a heart attack. Are these the moments I wish upon myself. THey must be, because guess what I had for lunch today.That MONSTER burger from Hardees, a large fry and a large sweet tea. Yeah, all of that helps my blood sugar stay down. If I didnt know better, I would swear I was trying to kill myself. Thats what I would say about anyone else, so why not say it about myself? I went 1170 calories over my daily budget today... WTH? and that was by lunch time. So what am I going to do about it. I am going to go walk for 20 minutes, I am going to do 50 crunches and do a biggest loser workout. I did the crime now I have to pay the consequences. Are they enough probably not. But you know what TOMORROW is a NEW DAY! My Goal for tomorrow is to get up by 6am,take my thrive, slap on that dft, walk 20 minutes, do stair steps every time I get near the bottom step, do a biggest loser workout, and some meditation. To eat a little more nutritious. Most of all to have a better attitude about myself. I am worth my time. I am enough!