August 31, 2010

So day 2 of eating way unhealthy.....and almost no exercise unless you count walking around walmart for 3 hours grocery shopping exercise...but our food choices were a lot healthier.....I am proud of us for that! We are going to get this weight off. We are determined....Hopefully tomorrow will start off on the right foot....we will see! I am proud of my girl Jess though...she has really jumped in with both feet and took this calorie counting by storm,....keep up the good work girly....you gave me inspiration tonight and made me ashamed of myself for the last 2 days of meals.

Aug 30, 2010

So...today was a bad day.....as far as dieting goes...I got up and went for a walk with Shane this morning 1.29 miles...up from the 1.11 from last night....however that all went out the window when I had chinese this afternoon with friends.....I have no will power whatsoever when it comes to that....NONE...That is my favorite food.....so we will see what tomorrow holds...quite honestly what I would like it to hold is some extra sleep...we have been getting up so early and getting moving that I feel so drained.....I really think I need to take a break and get some rest...and get caught up in pictures!!!! We will see what tomorrow holds!

Tomorrow starts a new week....

I am super excited that tomorrow starts a new week....however I dont think that by tomorrow night I will be excited. Shane got the INSANITY work out. I am going to try it....I can guarantee it is going to kick my booty and that is ok. I need to lose this weight. I keep saying that I need to lose 100 lbs...however as I thought about that tonight over the course of the last few weeks I have lost 13 so I only have 87 more to go...I weigh and measure tomorrow. I asked Shane this morning if he would go walk with me because I haven't really been outside a whole lot since Sunday of last week. He said sure....so we were just going to do a quick couple of blocks....well once we were out there that quick couple of blocks turned into .97 miles....and then tonight after dinner he was like you wanna go again and I said sure....so we went again and this time a little further 1.11 miles tonight for a total of 2.08 miles for the day....the first walk in 20 min and the second in 22 min. I feel so much better about myself....Now lets see what i am screaming tomorrow night....LOL! The journey has definitely begun!!!!

August 28,2010

Well I weighed this morning and I am down to 222.8 not as much as I thought I would be down...but I am happy with it...every little bit helps. I find myself not being as hungry and if I start to overeat...I find myself being miserable and so full I feel like I am going to explode....I guess that is a good thing...because as I am sitting at the table at dinner I think...I am still so hungry...so I went for seconds tonight since I didnt eat breakfast and OH MY GOD....I was so miserable there for a little while. Maybe my stomach is starting to shrink....one can only hope. So I am off to bed....tomorrow is a new day and I cant wait to see what it holds....

Enjoying the journey!

So I am getting pretty good at watching what I eat and portioning out what I eat. I am down to 223 lbs. Next week starts some sort of exercise routine...i am paying every month for the gym....why exactly i don't use it on a daily basis is a mystery to me...and a huge frustration for my hubby. I can completely understand this... So maybe I will at least try to go to the gym 3 times a week and do some home exercise the other days. All I know is that it felt good to get on the scales and see that I had started losing pounds. Now if I can just manage to get exercise added to the regimen....I will be happy......we will see what happens.....Enjoying the journey....

Another Day.....8/285/10

What exactly was I thinking when I started this journey.... I am a fat girl. It sucks. This morning I got up at 645 and went to get dinner out of the freezer and our little dog that I love ohhhhh so much decided she wanted to run the neighborhood. That is so not cool....as everyone is out getting ready to go to work and to school..the fat girl is running the neighborhood frantically looking for the little one...I am so glad that I didnt go out there in my jammies....at least I got up and got dressed for the day! So I have been up ever since. I had 230 calories for breakfast in a shake., and 365 calories in lunch. That leaves me a few for dinner. I still didnt make it to the gym but I figure if I can manage to get myself up out of bed for the next few days and spend the day working....then on Monday I will manage the gym! Baby steps.....I havent lost any weight in the last few days...I am still at 226 but I havent gained back up to 230....so I am feeling pretty good about it. I started really watching what I ate and counting calories today so we will see. I am feeling pretty decent about it.!!! So just wanted to post where my journey is and how it is (not) progressing....hopefully the rest of this week will be better and next week even better than that!

Day 1 of the Uturn

I am trying to get back on track. I didnt go to the gym today but I did manage to catch up on some much needed rest. I feel a little better. I am trying to get some organization going on....between the business and the personal.... I feel so overwhelmed. So today my goal is to set up some organization and start to feel like I have accomplished some things in my life on a daily basis... I weighed this morning....and the scale said 226. I had a yogurt for breakfast/lunch and I am making grilled chicken, rice, and english peas for dinner. I havent really exercised today but the day isnt over yet....although I cant make any promises that I am going to do it but I am not crossing it out yet.....now to accomplish some things!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is going to be the day for the U-TURN! I am going to go to the gym and get my but in gear to start losing this extra person I have been adding to forever. I have to get this elephant off my chest. It is scary to lay down at night and not be able to breathe. It hurts. So tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life.....I read the other day that you can stop in the middle of a day and close your eyes take a deep breath and start the day over again. Well I am stopping in the middle of this part of my life and taking a deep breath and digging my way out of this whole......My best is all I have to give.....so here we go.....deep breaths............

Day 2

So today has been a good day...we had a CVMA meeting in Ozark, the bestie is still here. We are just hanging out....So what do I do to get exercise....I think I am going to take Saturdays and Sundays off from exercise, but what that means for me is that I have to step it up and work a lot harder during the week. I have to get this weight off....My goal for the month is 10lbs. If it is more then I will be estatic....but that is my goal for the month, that is 2 1/2 lbs a week. That is attainable. As I get more used to regularly exercising and changing my eating habits then we will up the goal. But for now that is it. I am a little nervous. I seem to have trouble sticking with any kind of diet or exercise if I have to do it by myself....so we will see. This is only the beginning of my journey.

Day 1

Ok so today was just like any other day for the most part. But the difference today is I made a conscious decision to do something about where my life is headed. I have teamed up with the bestie over the miles to lose weight.....I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 227.4lbs....I started really thinking about my life and what was going on with it. I have type 2 diabetes, I'm tired all the time and feel like I constantly have an elephant on my chest. Whose fault is that.....UM HELLO....its MY OWN FAULT. Who can change that...again its me! So what am I going to do about it. So thus begins my journey to be healthy. I had my husband measure me yesterday....because yesterday was actually day 1 but I didn't get around to posting it...I was busy and then we had company come in...which by the way happens to be the bestie. and I just never got around to it. So today I have to do day 1 and day 2 and make a goal for me to remember to blog. I didnt blog in any of my blogs. Anyway....much to my solid dismay...my measurements are out of control....48, 47, 47..... I truly wanted to cry when the measuring tape wouldn't fit around me. I know some of you probably think I am insane for posting the actual numbers. But that is what they are and I plan to make them different. I am also adding pictures every week, with measurements again....if I am going to do this...I am going to lay it all out there for the world to see.....the struggles that I have to go thru to get the joys of accomplishments. This is me and this is my journey!