I LOVE FOOD ... that is the problem.. its a horrible addiction.. its not like drugs or alcohol.. you cant go to rehab and make new friends stay away from it.. you have to have it to live.. without it your gonna die...its NOT FAIR..
A quote from my new friend Patti Spurlock. I was talking to her this afternoon about my weight loss journey and where she thought hers had started.... and this was something that she said amidst our conversation. Its so true.... it makes me think about the quote that says God if you wont make me thin...please make all my friends fat. I have always loved that quote, however I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy. I hate being fat. I know I am the only one that can do anything about it. But it is much easier said than done when you have been fat for as long as you can remember. I knew there was a problem a few months ago when I couldnt sleep for having panic attacks in the middle of the night from not being able to breathe. If I turned over on my back...I was gasping for air. So I lost a few lbs maybe 15 or so and I was a little better so I stopped really trying. Well the other day I got on the scale and saw that I was gaining again and it really was a slap in the face. I am going to be right back where I started from if I dont do something different. So I am trying to do different. however this morning i overslept. when I get up late, I tend to not do anything for the rest of the day because I am angry that my day is gone. It drives me crazy. So today I swore was not going to be like that. I started the last 2 loads of laundry that were left in the house. (for today...there always seems to be a mountain of laundry before I know it.) I made lunch....and I think i am fixing to get in a wii workout. I have to do something....sore as I am....I dont want to give up on me. I am going to do this....I have to do this.....FOR ME! I want to like what I see in the mirror and not be disgusted by who I am....
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