Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I Love You
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common since
Never let your prayin knees get lazy
And love like crazy... Lee Brice
The past couple of months have been in a word CRAZY! An emotional roller coaster ride to say the least. It seems like one thing will finally start getting a little better to handle and then my family has been knocked off its rocker again. Several times I have said as well as other people in my family that we just aren't sure how much I(we) can take. I have found myself fighting to get out of bed. I know that I have to keep going. I WILL NOT GIVE UP! I have gained 13 lbs in the last 2 months. I seem to just want to eat and not do anything. The only things that really make me forget everything that is wrong in our life is eating and pictures. I love taking pictures....I am having a little bit of trouble sitting down to edit those pictures because I can't seem to stop myself from thinking when I am sitting still. I have to pull myself out of this rut. I am not doing anyone any good in my current state of mind. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. Yesterday I met a friend for lunch. It was the first time we have seen each other in YEARS!! We were talking about where our lives have been and where they are going...I was truly amazed with my thought process. I have so much to be thankful for. I am the wife of an amazing veteran. Who fought for our country. Who has lost so much more than I will ever be able to imagine. Who has sacrificed more than most will ever fathom. Every day is a battle for a lot of soldiers. There are so many people who would love to be in my shoes right now and have the things that I do to be thankful for. I have 2 kids in my home that I love as if they were my own. I have several children in my life that I love as if they were my own. I have a family that if anything is dysfunctional...however they are mine and I love them! I have a zoo that I absolutely love. (needs to be downsized, but loved nonetheless). I have a core group of friends that are absolutely amazing....I have a business that is finally picking up and I know that I have to work at it to get it where I want it. So I am going to start setting goals that I can attain and work toward them once I attain those I will set more and work toward those. We are never promised tomorrow, So I need to make the most of today. EVERY DAY! I will be setting goals today....we will see what happens. After all it is my life and I am the only one who can make a difference in it. I am once again determined to do just that....make a difference!ILYSPT!
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