4/20/11 Who can affect me permanently????

"Other people and things can stop you temporarily. You're the only one who can do it permanently." ~Zig Ziglar~

I found this quote online this morning. It just hit me like it was meant for me. I had a goal this morning. I wanted to be up at 530 and out the door and in the gym by 6am. Well when you wake up at 630 obviously that isnt going to happen. When I got on the scale this morning I weighed in at 217.8, so aggravated but more aggravated at myself than anyone else. another pound and 4 oz. Whose fault is that...MINE! Po Folks didnt force me to eat there last night. Shane didnt force me...as a matter of fact if I remember correctly it was my idea....UM what exactly was I thinking. I was thinking that I could not get the country fried steak and mashed potatoes with both kinds of gravy....I was thinking I would make myself eat healthy. Did that happen....UM NO! Who am I kidding, I do not have the willpower YET, to do those things. I cant blame anyone but myself for those actions. I cant keep putting myself in temptations way until I am strong enough in myself to beat it, and then I cant be mad at anyone else for not getting up this morning. I can only be mad at myself. What is being mad going to do....I can tell you what it will do for me....It will put me in a bad mood for the day. I do NOT want to spend my day being mad. I want to spend my day getting things accomplished. So I didnt go to the gym at 6am. Who cares....I have all day to go that is why we bought a 24 hour gym membership. As long as I go and work myself hard, does it truly matter what time of day I go. I dont think so. I am the only one who can permanently affect me. I intend to do just that....Now off to mommas for her physical therapy and then to the gym....it is going to be a good day....after all it is my life and it is what I make it.......Living the life and loving the living!!!