Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain. ~Author Unknown
Today I will find the determination within myself to get past the pebbles. I am learning to believe in myself. I am learning to do new things and take risks without knowing the outcome. It is very scary for me. I have always wanted to anticipate the outcome and know exactly what was coming my way and how I was going to deal with it. I dont think that is really living....I think its safe just being.....I am tired of being safe. Today I woke up at the exact same time as I did yesterday and I weighed in at the exact same. Its kind of eye opening that I am going to be stuck in my same little box if I dont do something to start tearing down the wall on that box. NOT AN OPTION!!! I am very blessed to be on the adventure of a lifetime....So I cant have kids....a lot of people cant, they learn to move past it....I am sure that is going to be a pebble in my path for quite a while.....but I am determined to get past it. My life truly has been blessed. I have an amazing husband that believes in me like no other. Who picked up my dreams from a broken me and pieced them back together and made them worth fighting for again..And he dreams the same dreams...Not many people can say they do what they love, with who they love and love what they do. I can. He consistently makes things happen for me. If I dont understand something, if he doesn't know the answer he searches until he finds it. When I am ready to give up, he says lets try one more time....I couldn't ask for any better than that. He is my rock, my strength and my hope. He is my fairytale....so I dont have the white picket fence...I have a bigger yard than most, I have a house that we have made a home. I dont have a yard full of children....I do have furry friends that love me unconditionally and are quite happy to see me. But most of all I have the unconditional love of a family, that have become more like a family to me than my own sometimes. They welcomed me with open arms, never judging. I have recently been reacquainted with members of my own family that are truly amazing and I hate that I have wasted so much time not knowing them better. Who am I to be looking at the things that I dont have and dwell on them. I should be looking at the things I do have and being thankful. Today I look forward, only glancing over my shoulder to remember why I am looking forward. No one ever said the journey would be easy....they only said that it would be worth it. Today I will take the risks...today I will love like there is no tomorrow....today I will make things happen....Today I will love me! Because I am worth it....and my family is worth it.
The journey is on track....It is my life, and it is what I make it...
Life is like a book, and I intend to fill every page with this journey. Destination unknown......
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