One of the most helpful images to have of yourself in your family is that of a trim tab - the small rudder that moves the big rudder and eventually changes the entire direction of the plan.
~Stephen R. Covey
Lord, Please let me see myself as this part of the rudder....because right now I feel as if I am the part that takes it down. I cant seem to keep myself motivated for nothing.....I feel as if I am drowning...Who knows...maybe I am. I am just tired...as a matter of fact...I am EXHAUSTED...it seems like every time I turn around there is something else going wrong or someone else that needs something done...I love my family and I am so thankful for the closeness that I have with them...I don't know what I would do without them. I need to make some changes within me...so that I am a better member of this family..I need to work on me...I need to be happy with me...and with the person that I am...but I am so far from being happy....I feel like I am the good year blimp...but lately the only thing that is really comforting to me is food. I want so badly to change the things in my life that matter the most to me...but cant seem to find the courage to follow thru. I am tired I am going to bed....maybe tomorrow will be better.....although today was fun....other than shane beign sick...we took Jaq out for her birthday...we went to lunch at Olive Garden and then went to Michaels.....I am rambling now...I really have nothing left to say....
I weighed 220 this morning....I am sure with the way I ate today I will weigh 225 tomorrow...
No exercise today...unless you are counting me lifing my fork to my face.....
I am so disgusted with me....
Goals for tomorrow.....
get some work done.....
exercise, eat right....take care of me....
we will see.....ILYSP!
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